Melrami

SON OF A BITCH, I wish I didn't lose my friend's number. She's the only one that would have gone with me at the metal/hardcore show that 's going on AS I TYPE. Truth be told, some of these local bands are really crappy, but IT' SO WORTH IT when I hear something good. It's fascinating to watch all these kids gather around the door of the space. Do all off them feel comfortable labeling themselves? I never was. They all stand in thier SUPER COOL world, cusssing and smoking, me, a wallflower or wallpaper, nodding my head and tapping my heel to the vibrating, deafening riffs. Goddamn, I would love to meet a guy there, he doesn't even have to be i

I don't know what the hell I should do...I don't even know if this is what I really want or if I'm just doing it to meet expectations...so...expensive...art school or university, community or lberal, out of state or at home...Its too much to consider...I don't have much money. I just want to go to sleep for a couple of years.